So my three month Literature Wales Writers’ Bursary has finally ended.
I feel as if I should be sad. Of course, like every writer, there’s side of me that longs to continue writing full time. But the other is still jumping for joy at having been given the privilege of these last three months, and pride in the fact that it enabled me to finish my next novel, ‘We That Are Left’, set in the First World War, to be published by Honno Press in February 2014.
I’m looking forward to getting back into my old routine and catching up with work colleagues, and I’ll be going back with a much clearer sense of myself as a writer. Like most writers, I’ve been rushing around for years attempting to fit my writing in between jobs and life. Not to mention chasing that elusive idea that might attract a publisher’s attention and working out what kind of writer I am – or want to be.
And so one of the unexpected benefits of the bursary has been the time it has given me to catch up with myself. Instead of rushing to finish work for the day job to earn time to write, then rushing to get as much done before going back to catch up with the day job, I was actually able to stop. My mind stopped scurrying around for ideas at every possible moment. And in those quiet times, when I didn’t feel guilty about not planning and writing and thinking about writing for every hour of the day, so many ideas came flooding in.
So a huge, thank you to Literature Wales for giving me this privileged time. And, just as importantly, for giving me the boost of confidence that goes with being awarded a Writers’ Bursary. The totally and utterly eye-twitchingly insecure writer in me (you know, the one that isn’t writing the next War and Peace/Hamlet/Middlemarch) has blinked hard, sat up straight and muttered blimey – I might just be a writer after all. Which might mean it finally goes off into a corner and worries about something else (Housework, crows feet, the state of the universe, nice safe little things to obsess over) instead.
And while I wasn’t looking, Eden’s Garden snuck back into the Kindle charts as part of the summer sale, and reached the top five – just two places below Fifty Shades at one point. Hurrah! 🙂
And it’s still only 99p in the Amazon summer sale ……
There are more exciting happenings in the near future. But for those, I am sworn to silence. For now ……… 🙂 (and it had better not be for long, or I’ll burst!)